Poem: Many times I feel alone
I see that this mainly happens
when that which I desire isn’t given to me
from things on the outside, whether
this is a person, place or thing.
For sure I have the urge to connect
in a profound way with another
but also I can see that most times
I’m the obstacle of my own desire.
When I’m feeling lonely and isolated
then there also opens up a new space
to look at myself and question:
Why is it that I feel this way?
Then I see that I’ve made the choice
to believe my thoughts that I’m alone.
I see how many times I’ve felt like this
choosing to suffer – to feel alive.
Then I see that my prison is self-made
and realize I have another choice:
I can open the bars of my cage and
walk outside and greet the warm sunshine.
Then I know sovereignty – breaking dependency
of my endless desire to find love in the outside.
I see that Love is there for the choosing,
only I have to let go of my thinking head.
When there is nothing left that I desire,
then I feel complete and no longer alone.
I can open my arms and embrace existence
Immersing myself in love.
~ Betsy ~
April 20, 2003
Image is from Osho Zen Tarot Deck, Five of Rainbow, the Outsider