I am a spiritual person that isn't bound by any description that others or myself can put upon me today and am most passionate about being myself in a non-thinking way. I realize holding beliefs doesn't allow to see clear, and so have queried myself to discover what mine were and subsequently let them go. What I am left with is ‘trust’ in my own growing process and being a part of life. Sometimes I feel like a guinea pig, doing all the hard way, but that out of this may come some light.

Describe the type of person you'd like to meet:
I’m interested in people who can communicate being guided by their intuitive feelings vs. responding in a thinking defensive way, without holding back. People that have intensely pursued the question: 'Who Am I?' and have moved beyond responding like robots. People who still question their past image, learn from it and modify to reinvent themselves. People who take nothing for granted and question all including themselves. People who are no longer satisfied by consuming outside activities... 

Describe the ideal relationship:

I hesitate to describe an ideal, because then I know that this is loaded with expectations and for sure it will fail. The best would be that both people are interested in creating new things, including themselves coming out of a heart-felt directive. It would be essential that the other person is interested in bettering the world and is doing active steps to make changes, in that direction. Communication the most important; expressing without the need to protect or defend one's past.

What should a great date consist of:

The image of a 'great date' evokes for me fantasies & commercial forms of entertainment like going to a movie or a concert. I don't even want to say that a great date would be walking in nature. How can I put so much expectation into a momentary encounter with another person? A good time would be having an exchange, in an animated way with laughter and feeling one's emotions in an intense way. The setting isn't important, but rather connecting with another spirit in unity. 

Describe your work/business and what it means to you:

I like living in community with other kindred spirits and to be near nature, yet where I am relatively independent from society but not separated totally from it. I can see that I have all I need in abundance & more freedom than most people can dream of. I have the opportunity to be creative & express myself directly in an artistic way, without pressure. However, living with others isn't easy as it often doesn't give me confirmation. Instead it challenges me to look again at myself and my habitual and sometimes hurtway ways of responding to people, which helps me to grow, becoming more loving to myself and others. Our real work is transformation.

What do you like to do for fun/activities:

I've been meditating for 15 yrs & enjoy querying myself and what is behind happenings. Most days I garden, tend to animals, work with my hands & do some writing. I like to try new things and recently soldered elec. circuits to make a Zapper & made composting toilets & boxes for human manure. I am interested in energetic healing therapies, sound healing, sungazing, raw and organic foods, nature walks, dumpster diving, taking photos, finding uses for recycled items, reading Tarot, poetry of Rumi, writing poetry, creative writing & investigating new topics.

What does being *conscious* mean to you:

I’ve been having exchanges with people in forums for a number of years & everybody in these spiritual circles has a brilliant definition of consciousness. But what I observe is that hardly anyone demonstrates this in their daily lives. This is evident when they can't respond beyond the need to defend what they believe themselves to be. The mind is tricky & when people give up all to become ‘spiritual’, then often the result is being happy with the new image, no longer having a need to question it.

How long and what motivated you to be on a conscious path:

It started a long time ago. I started turning the eye onto myself when I reached a low point in my life and felt like dying. I came to the conclusion that what was happening in my life, I could no longer blame or give the fault to the outside, it had something to do with how it was inside of me. Since that day, I started meditation and journaling in earnest, always with the question: "Who am I?" 

What types of healing modalities do you practice or would your to learn:

I do reiki self-treatment, meditation, sungazing and EFT daily. I write in a journal and work to resolve conflicts. I work on healing myself - which doesn’t mean that I have a known disease. Now I am doing a series of cleanses and will soon investigate about improving my near vision. I'm interested in alternative ways to heal ourselves and our planet.

What are you most passionate about:

I am most passionate about empowering others to help them heal themselves and raise their awareness. To this end I am working on articles and books to give information about what worked for me, hoping others will find it useful. I am also interested in helping build community, and am working on organizing a trust to help with this. I am interested in living together with kindred spirits, sharing land and resources and our creativity, hoping that together we can focus our energy as a group and come up with solutions to turn things around on this planet, healing ourselves and the world. I know that by raising my own consciousness, I have an effect via the morphogentic field or the global consciousness, so all work I do on myself will be available directly to anyone going down the same path. So I feel this is the most important because I can change others by changing myself. This also has it's effects in my interactions with other humans and situations, so it affects in the physical realm as well. To help even more, then my work is also the same: giving information to help raise the consciousness of other people. I know that real world peace will only happen when enough individual's have realized peace within themselves. Thusly, I am motivated to go beyond my personal needs; helping others who are suffering because there is a lack of light.

What are your favorite conversation topics:

Healing. I' m convinced that 'disease' can be part of our healing process if we relate creatively to it. Each of us is responsible for our own healing, which is connected with our development of awareness. Becoming free of dependencies is an important step. Forget the idea that's being sold that you need to pay to be healed. Money and pills aren't needed, there is an abundance of free tools available: meditation, sungazing, fasting, emotional work & most importantly: relating & responding to daily life happenings.

Where do you see yourself 5 years from today:

I have no goal 5 years from today, rather am satisfied with knowing my limitation and responding to what is being created as a whole. I engage with the present, relating to what shows up, letting life be my guide for what to do next. However, I can project thru my vision & fill with hope that there will form a group of kindred spirits acting creatively as a team, effective in their effort to bring light into this world. There will be growing sovereignty of people who don't need authorities.

Describe your dream/ideal vacation:

I don't have a dream/ideal vacation. To see it like this would imply that my current life doesn't satisfy, and going to another place would fill this empty void. I'm certain another location won't satisfy my inner longing and holding out for a dream will leave me disappointed. This isn't to say that I wouldn't mind exploring different places or meeting new people. I haven't traveled and would like to visit other warm places: Hawaii, Australia, Costa Rica, Canaries, Arizona, New Mexico, etc.

What types of books/authors do you enjoy and why:

These days I don’t read books for pleasure; instead I read for investigative purposes. Recently I read about zero balancing, reiki and books by Eckhardt Tolle. On a lighter note I read in forums and poetry online, I like poetry that allows depth such as that by Rumi. I like to read something that challenges my previous mindset or conditioning giving me another perspective.

What/who are some of your favorite movies/films/actors:

This is a more difficult question as I haven't watched movies in over 7 years.. I like Meryl Streep, Jody Foster, Al Pacino & Harrison Ford to name a few. In general, I would like quality movies with good acting that are provoking the viewer's emotions and raising questions about life. If after the movie was over, the viewer had a question about themselves or about something in the world, then I would consider it good. 

What kind of music moves you:

I like reggae, folk music & country, when the lyrics come out of real life situations and go beyond the endless need to find love on the outside. I like drums & music with a strong rhythm for dancing: Latin, Salsa & Rock-n-Roll. I like Native American flute music, acoustical guitar and others for listening. If the music came out of an artistic self-expression & is not just being rolled out expecting to make money or to be famous then I can sense the difference, liking it, no matter the genre.

What kind of pets do you have? Name:

I don’t decide to get pets, they appear to come out of nowhere, lost and lonely souls that come asking for someone to give them attention. Where I live, I take care of quite a few stray cats and am close with 7 of them. We also have 3 dogs that I take every day for a walk in the forest. I prepare the meal for all of them once a day and serve it to them, so they naturally like me... I like all animals and can communicate easily with them. Lately I am experimenting with giving Reiki treatments to sick dogs and cats.

Do you Support any charity organizations:

I used to, but feel it doesn't help to give money when the charity serves the function to bail people out of desperate situations. Often these kinds of charities have the tendency to keep people in dependency and doesn’t enable them to become independent. But there are exceptions. If I see something that is creative then I give my support in the way that is the most useful being it money or time. My life focus is dedicated to volunteering and I’m not interested in amassing material property.

What makes you smile:

Our dog is jealous of the new male dog which is double his size. Everytime the new dog comes to greet us, then he stands between the other dog & that person. It makes me smile that he loves us this much. Its amusing to watch him hide a bone making great efforts that nobody sees him. Or thinking I need a present for New Year’s & then asking: What do I want? It comes to me: tickets to the disco for the young people. Then stopping at the trash, looking in the first bag I find 4 tickets to the disco!

Is there anything else you'd like to share:

I think I’ve used up nearly all the space available to express myself, so I hope that by answering these questions giving my full attention to them, you have a better idea of who I am and what is important for me. Mainly, I am looking for a kindred spirit, either as a partner or a friend, who would like to share their walk of life with me, that is walking their own talk and would like to do so to benefit the whole.