Going Beyond the Story-Telling Habit

How to Go Beyond the Story-Telling Habit

Comment: “An area of my ongoing ‘work’ is to watch my reactions to the happenings that come my way. There are never ending opportunities to be alert and especially so in relationships. To reduce unnecessary suffering to oneself and others, one must be aware of one’s habit to add ‘mental stories’ to explain away what is happening. It seems so hard to stay close to the unfolding life, in the present moment. It seems there is an irritation with ‘what is’ happening, we want to fight it, and it arises because we want/expect things to be different! It seems the best we can do is to accept it ain’t going to be how we want it, then to drop our story telling habit – and this is all one can do and needs to do to go beyond it.”

It is a good ability to be able to see one’s story-telling habit when it arises – it takes a lot of awareness to see it, to know it’s happening when it does and to recognize it. It takes even more awareness to be able to truly let it go and drop it because one has to be willing to not want to do it. I also agree with you that relationships provide such a fertile growing opportunity, and especially when there is conflict. I grew a lot from such a situation a few years ago. (I’m not saying you have conflict…)

I remember questioning the phenomena of story-telling itself as a whole, I wrote a four articles on this topic, here is link to part 1: Why Is Internal Dialog So Persistent?  What was interesting to me is I knew this talking was nonsense and defensive as I could see that when I looked at the content. It was totally ridiculous stuff and often not very nice to myself or others. I also observed it could go on by itself for a long time and would effect my emotional state. Stress would build and I would get all wound up. I could easily get sick or react at anything with all the force of the built up energy, with my ego. I saw it later as me allowing personality to activate – to get strong, and then after this would happen, there was nothing more to do than to do more meditation and wait until this state de-energized. Depending on how far I let it go on, it could take from 3 days to a week to de-energize. So I am sure you know all this too, having observed it.

For me I was doing the same, noticing it and setting it aside, and thinking it was enough if I just did this. Yet doing this often it still wasn’t changing, it was still happening persistently. I could even go to sleep at night after meditation and wake up in the morning chattering away. It was curious how it was, like it had it’s own energy driving all by itself. I felt I needed to know something else about it to be able to stop doing it. Why did I still do this and get sucked in even though I knew the harm it caused me and others when I did it? I t all reduced to the question of: “What benefit do ‘I’ get out of it by doing it?”

I realized that one does a habit or behaves in a way, because by doing so one gets something out of it. To drop a habit, we have to know what we get out of it by doing it, and only then when we see that, will we be ready to make a clear decision to be able to drop being in that way. One adopts a habit at a point in one’s life, because it was helpful for oneself at the time one adopted it. The habit we are talking about is one that has been with humans for a long, long, time, so also why it’s so hard to change, transmute and drop.

To change any habit, one must see clear what benefit it gives you to do it. Once one sees the benefit one gets, which one can only ‘observe this’ while it happens to receive this understanding (it can’t be understood intellectually), then one will have new self-knowledge about one’s conditioned habit in a general way. This is an epiphany, aha moment or leap in understanding. One could say the true self sees it.

Once we have that piece of information, then our willingness to drop it will increase and as we practice doing that more, then we start to spend progressively more time in quiet than in self-talk and our perception and ability to be present will be enhanced. Our growing awareness will start to pick up significantly after that – as moments of quiet time increases…

Hint: One must be willing to enter into a totally unknown, still and quiet field of being. At first this is scary, because one has never encountered it before or been like this before, so being unknown it will take much courage to enter into what seems to be darkness at first. But that is only a momentary reaction, it is actually more like bright light.

Betsy
November 3, 2008

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