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Going to a vipassana meditation course in two days. Looking forward to it.
Feel a deep sense of relief and relaxation when I look at the date
on my calendar when I will arrive. :-)

I  don't know what it will be like, an inward journey to my soul, perhaps.
There is a schedule, ten hours of meditation every day, some food but
not a lot, and silence between all participants at all times.

Looking forward to it.

G

Well, the course was massive.

As expected I encountered a lot of resistance towards the process. The first day it manifested
as pain in my back, then in my legs. Then when the pain disappeared it came as mental resistance
to the process of 10 days meditation. I couldn't sit still and observe. I had to move around, even
while the other 60 people seemed to be doing fine. They would move a bit here and there, I could
not sit still even five minutes after a period of 20-30 minutes had been. It was horrible. I felt so
ashamed and demotivated. I wanted to leave, and almost did. It was so hard, my mind could
for some reason not take more than 20-30 minutes of meditation this way.

So finally on the 4th day I asked the manager to leave... he told me to speak to the teacher of the course.
I went for a walk in the forest before my appointment with him and asked inwardly to my higher self, or
higher power or whatever. :P I got the answer to litsen to my teacher whatever he said. When he told me
to stay, I stayed. It was still awful the next days but I had a couple of 'sittings' where I did fine and only moved
about a little bit.

But the funny thing was, when the course was over I felt so great. Full of energy, love and feeling of connection
to the whole world. Intuitive. This feeling lasted for some weeks and I am still feeling very positive.

Good course, and I would take it again if I can manage to sit and do this type of meditation for an hour by myself.
If I don't manage to sit for one hour at a time I don't know, because then I would run into the same problems again
next time. But, I am trying to increase my sittings by one minute or two every day so I will eventually manage an hour.

Geir